like there is nothing to you.. your so boring and plain compared to everyone els.
do you ever feel like your not intelligent in any way..
I constantly feel like a failure and i so desperately want to change that and accomplish something huge.. but i just dont think im smart enough… let alone do i have the motivation.
im not a likeable person, i just NEED to get out of this rut. i dont know what to do anymore.
I havent been truly happy since i moved back to riverside from northern california..
I wish my father didnt hate me. i wish he could be proud of me…but compared to my sister, im nothing but a dissapointment.
i feel like such an underachiever in a family of overachievers. on my moms side.. every one is a doctor or a therapist, and their kids are all going to amazing colleges to become doctors.. and then there is me. i work part time at spencers and can barely get into the classes i need at a community college.
I live with my boyfriend who hates me.
i treat him like shit because im so depressed and uhnappy with myself.
i have few friends. and the few i have are all on different levels, they either have kids or full time jobs and a life on top of that.
i feel alone all the time. i wish my sister lived closer. shes the only one who can actually give good advise that i listen to. i have a beautiful family and i wish i was closer to all of them.
but i feel so shitty because i feel like such a low life compared to all of them..
i dont know how to overcome all this… but i just want to be done with feeling so shitty all the time..
i dont know where to start.
